Ice Cube represented pure truth on this track. Basically, it is about being “true to your people, your heritage, and yourself”. These images are something to understand. Just because you don’t want to associate with your race doesn’t automatically disallow you to experience the hardships. At the end of the day, all we got is us.
The problem comes when the “us” starts to tear “us” apart. THEN, what are we left with. A bigger mess.
I’m a woman who’s PROUD to be Black. I wouldn’t change it if I could. But when looking for a neighborhood to live in, I’d choose a predominantly White neighborhood over a predominantly Black one ANY day. When in need of a product or service, I choose to patronize businesses that are NOT Black Owned, and when attending a public event (such as a baseball game or festival), I’d prefer NOT to be seated in a section made up of only Black people. Am I a Self-Racist? I’m concerned NOW because my three teen-aged boys are starting to show signs of exhibiting this behavior, but I’m not sure that I, myself, am in a (mental) place to change it.
I can’t call you a self-racist because you honestly don’t hate being Black. That isn’t your problem. Your problem is that your experiences have painted a bad picture for all of the Black people that you may deal with on a social and business level. What you may be experiencing is, if anything, a sort of stereotyping of your own people. You work not to deal with many Black people because, deep down, so many Black people may have disappointed you.
Am I making what you feel “okay”? No, not hardly.
Am I realizing that what you feel is “real” to you? Absolutely.
Trust in the fact that I understand what you are going through. Your relationships with some Black men have left you utterly disappointed. Most of the trials and tribulations caused by you have been at the hands of Black people. Hell, even the Black businesses that you WANTED to support didn’t hold up to standard. In short, you have tried to be open hearted (even with open wallet) only to be let down again and again.
What is noticeably the sadder thing of it all is that ALL Black people aren’t like this and you know it. Yet, your experiences have been so traumatizing that you rather not take any more chances. So, making new experiences will be difficult. Then again, you don’t have to always feel this way. With some concentrated effort, your views can change (or at least soften).
But the bigger issue doesn’t have to do with you; the bigger issue has to do with your children. Your children need to be allowed to make their own decisions about how Black people operate. YOUR experiences may not be THEIR experiences. They need to live life for themselves and not by your influence. In the end, they have to determine what people are like and aren’t like.
I have an idea that may help: when you get a chance, you all can take time to find just one Black business that you like. From there, you can deal with a group of Black people that you can feel good about being around. After that, you can see what is what. I know you have been burned in the past. But, don’t let people’s lack of humanity and business acumen scar the future for the others.
‘Nuff said and ‘Nuff respect!!!